Today my heart is a stone on a leash that I am dragging behind me. I hear it scrape along bumping and tumbling getting caught on weeds and falling into cracks. This heaviness makes every thought, every action feel like I am made of lead. Each thing I do is without much thought as thoughts are too painful for today.
Yesterday I talked to my husband a few times. Not even hearing him say he misses me made me feel better. There is not much that will take away this weight except him coming home COMPLETELY healed. His terrible signal strength makes each call drop several times and is often garbled as if he is on the dark side of the moon.
Here is a fear: what will it be like when he returns? If my husband is gone for three to six months what will this absence do to our marriage? My marriage is like a growing garden. It is new and fresh and has not had time for deep roots to form. We have weathered many rainy days where clouds covered the sky and some where there was lots of golden sun. When the garden goes to rest for the winter do you ever wonder, "what will this be like a few months from now?" This is all I can think of.
We have never been separated for more than a few days in the last few years. This closeness is so precious to me. I tried to Google "dealing with long separations in marriage" but the only thing it turned up was about getting divorced. Surely someone else has done this before and come out okay?
This morning I heard God whisper to me, "Don't you know I am working out all things for good?" I wonder, if this is true, then why does it hurt so much right now?
Yesterday I talked to my husband a few times. Not even hearing him say he misses me made me feel better. There is not much that will take away this weight except him coming home COMPLETELY healed. His terrible signal strength makes each call drop several times and is often garbled as if he is on the dark side of the moon.
Here is a fear: what will it be like when he returns? If my husband is gone for three to six months what will this absence do to our marriage? My marriage is like a growing garden. It is new and fresh and has not had time for deep roots to form. We have weathered many rainy days where clouds covered the sky and some where there was lots of golden sun. When the garden goes to rest for the winter do you ever wonder, "what will this be like a few months from now?" This is all I can think of.
We have never been separated for more than a few days in the last few years. This closeness is so precious to me. I tried to Google "dealing with long separations in marriage" but the only thing it turned up was about getting divorced. Surely someone else has done this before and come out okay?
This morning I heard God whisper to me, "Don't you know I am working out all things for good?" I wonder, if this is true, then why does it hurt so much right now?